TRUE.

Today, I realized that if Taylor Swift married Taylor Lautner, her name would also be Taylor Lautner. MLIA

Blonde Bo Moments #1

So I have the whole Pet Peeve and Self-Fact sections, but I'm going to start a Blonde Bo series highlighting all my daily fails/FMLs, because there are just sooo many :). Here's the first:

So I programmed into my phone that I had to take my grad picture today at 8:50. I'm in drama class at this time so at about 8:40, I left to go change. I checked myself out in the mirror and thought, for once, I looked good on a day I need to. Cause you see, I have this thing that on days where I need to look good, I look like a grizzly bear, but on days where I really don't give a shit, I look my best. Now I make my way to the photo room, sit down on the box, and say my name. The photographer claimed that I wasn't on the list, so I proceeded to take my appointment sheet out of my pocket. NOW, doesn't she open it, unfold it, and at the same time we realize that it says 8:50 for December 4th- exactly a week from that moment. I look at her, she smiles, I turn beat red, and she shows me the door.

Working Hard, or Hardly Working?

So the week from hell is finally over.
I've been so busy with stuff- from calculating ALL the results from the thousands (literally) of students who did the cafe survey, to applying for more scholarships, to nerding it up for chem.
We got our last test back and the highest mark was a 74.. yeah.
Even though I still got a mark in the 70s and it was really good compared to the class, I'm still pissed. We all lost marks for using an equation in the textbook that she apparently told us not to use. She was sick for a week but, if she did say that, I definitely missed the memo.
So today we had another test in chem and I think I did pretty well. You can never be too sure though. I honestly thought I aced the last one..
Bio is going okay. It sucked that MY WIFE DROPPED THOUGHH >:|
UNFORGIVEABLE! Although, I must admit, I've been A LOT more focused. And it showed on the last quiz. Maybe that's cause I studied even harder.
About studying.. the entire week I went to bed after 3.. I had to OD on ginseng to made sure I had a personality for school. I was so delirious the whole week.
Drama is going pretty well too. It's kinda rough having to stay at rehearsel until 5 everyday, but I kinda enjoy it. I really need to get off book though so I can start to focus more on character. The rehearsel shananigans are coming to an end..

Drama shananigans 101

Honestly though if it weren't for friends, I would've made myself physically ill. I'm so glad I have fourth spare so I can just wind down and breathe. That and after school stuff are my biggest motivations. Special thanks to all those who continue to make my day :)

Highlights: Poosh's SNAP AND A HALF/APESHIT CUSSING yesterday (lmfao never seen you like that), volleyball with the fourth spare crew, the Proof crew hijinx, and anything else I missed.

Hopefully next week will be bettaaa.

Self-Fact #13

In Elementary School I won 5 awards upon graduation:

-Valedictorian
-Leadership Award
-School Spirit Award (LMFAOO WOO :))
-Literacy Award
-Honour Roll

Hopefully I can win that many at this year's grad..

I cry everytime I watch this.

I don't know why I find this so funny. I watched it with a friend the other day and soaked my face in tears. Stories are so much more entertaining from black people. :) First one is my favourite, second is the most popular though.

Long time no see

My life is full of circles.
The redundancy can get pretty boring.
But there's this one circle I'll never want to get out of.
I hate it.
As much as I try to escape, it'll always have me cuffed by the ankles.
I love it.

Follow me on Twitter!

www.twitter.com/matthewbotelho

I just joined and I have quite a few followers. :P

Proof Fam

I'd just like to say that Robert Williamson, April Leung, and Kaylee Reda are like family to me.
I love working with yall 3 hours a day during rehearsal.
From buying each other warm croissants, to sharing cookies, to buying each other things from Hong Kong- it's like family. :)
We need to make this play amazing.

LIGHTS Concert Thursday

I wanna go soooo bad.
But everyone is either working or not allowed to go on a Thursday.
If anyone else is down though message me ASAP :)

So I stand to let you down here; alone

Out with the old, and in with the new.

Out with the new, and in with the old.

Enough is enough.
I'm finally bringing this game of cat and mouse to an end.
I've turned so much down and sacrificed so much for you.. I've told lies, made excuses, and hurt people who really don't deserve it.
But you know what?
I'm starting to realize that I'm doing it for nothing. It's like choosing a cherry over a whole sundae, but I just couldn't take not having the cherry on top for some reason.
All in all, I could be so much better off and I don't deserve this.
So much for good friends..
We were doing sooo well a few months ago. We we're what good friends should be. Even though we didn't see each other as much as I see some of my other friends, we were in such a good mood and always had something to say.
Now we'll go up to each other, ask "what's up?" and that'll be the end of it.
I'll try so hard, but I don't know what it is with you.. just speak up and tell me what's on your mind.
Oh well.. something from my past is starting to come back and hopefully things will pick up where they left off. And that decision is ultimately up to me.

You're not that easy to forget

I'm Not Over - Carolina Liar

Pet Peeve #14

Cigarettes, weed, drugs, etc.
I know it's kinda shallow, but I feel naturally unattracted to anyone who does any of them.
I just can't allow myself to see past it. I can't help it.
People will always say "well you haven't tried it, so how do you know it's bad?".
Really now?
I don't have to try it for it for me to label it as unappealing to my tastes.
I think it's just a bad habit and a waste of money- and that's a fact I don't need to prove.
I mean, if I find out a friend smokes, I'm definitely not going to just stop talking to them, but honestly, to be straight up with all of you: I'm not going to want to hear of or be around any of it.
I wasn't raised to get into stuff like that and I doubt I ever will.
As for relationships, it's a definite no-no.
Smoker's breath is up there on my list of worst turn-offs.

STP Talent Night

Went down to Paul's tonight for their talent show.
It wasn't bad.. some pretty legit acts.
The best part was probably our commentary throughout. :)
Nice seeing those of you I rarely get the chance to see!

Cards

You look so lost ever since that happened again..
Put everything out on the table.
You might be surprised to see my hand.

That's Xavier Drama for you

So, it's official.
Fourth spare is competely pointless. I can't ever leave early.
Why?
From now until the end of the semester, all 11 people in my drama class have to stay after school, from Monday to Friday, until 5 pm to rehearse for our final performance. It's intenseee. Today was our first. It went pretty well. I'm really getting a feel for my character.
I was casted to play Hal in David Auburn's Proof. Other groups are doing How it Works, Conversations with a Spanish Lady, and Nagging Doubt.
I'm really looking forward to the show.
Stay tuned for deets to come watch us. It'll be amazing. :)

Pat on the back

My younger brother is doing so good in school.
I'm so proud. :)
He reminds me of me kinda.
I wasn't the sharpest tool in the shed as a kid, but when I put my mind to something, I can take on anything I want to- and so can he.

Deja Vu

I saw this coming.
I knew it would.
But I did it anyway- I couldn't say no.
I hate circles.

Scholarship Semi-Finalist!

YESSSS!
I was selected as a semi-finalist for a scholarship.
My heart skipped a few beats when I opened the acceptance e-mail.
Ahhh my mom was so proud.
As for my dad, he isn't picking up his cellphone and isn't at the restaurant.. why am I not surprised?
But whatever, I'll see him next weekend.. maybe?.. :/
I'm so thankful for everyone in guidance for making this all possible. Their reference letters had to be some of the nicest things I've ever had anyone write about me. I just about cried like a sucker in Mrs. Keaveny's office. :$
Hopefully I'll do well at the interview. I want this so badly. My family would go insane.
:')

Gravity vs. Buoyancy

Gravity is in the lead.

The minute you settle for less than you deserve,

you get even less than you settled for.

Pet Peeve #13

Haven't done this in a while because I'd rather talk about the positive then the negative, but I gotta share this:

So we get our report cards first period and- you know- I give it a look as I walk to second. Now don't get me wrong, it wasn't bad at all, It'll still get me into the programs I want to get into. But.. I don't know, I just thought that part of the human fuckin sense that Jesus Christ instilled (hopefully) in everyone one of us allowed us to understand the concept of respect and privacy. So, anyway, I'm about to get to class when some nexx bitch comes out of the clear blue fucking sky and decides to harass me about my mark. So I'm nice at first, y'know, I politely say that I wanna keep it to myself and that, basically, it's none of her damn business. BUT APPARENTLY, the damn girl's mom didn't teach her what the hell "no means no" means because she then proceeded to cut off the circulation in my right arm with her clutch and rip the report card outta my hand... now, had this been a really close friend, y'know, I probably woulda let it go and just laughed it off. But I'm just trying to say- when I barely know your first name, don't think that you got the authority to come and fuckin assault my ass and rip private shit outta my hand. You don't know me like that.

Sorry about the excessive swearing but I felt it was necessary. :) So anyways, bottom line: Pet Peeve #13 is for all of those people who don't know how to respect my privacy. And that goes beyond having the compulsion to rip shit outta my hand, but to fishing information outta me. If I don't want to tell you something, that's the end of that topic. Your welcome to change the subject if I don't first. Don't sit there playing 20 goddamn questions with me until I decide to cave in and share everything. I'm not easily manipulated. Try earning my respect in other ways and maybe I can learn to trust you.

Casted!

I GOT THE PART!
I'm so stoked you have no idea.
This is going to amazing.
Somehow, things have a tendency to fall into place.
Deets on the show will come soon.

My wardrobe exploded..

Sooo I got back from America at 2 am yesterday night.
Freaking legit day.
It was 22 degrees and sunny.. people were walking around in T shirts.
Really good food too.
The shopping was unbelievable. So many good deals for such nice stuff. I bought:

-Fossil Watch
-J. Crew Bag
-Minnetonka Moccasins
-Black Ralph Lauren V-Neck Pullover
-Grey V-Neck Pullover
-Greenish/Yellowish Pullover
-Tommy Hilfiger Shoes
-Skullcandy Headphones
-Superman Boxers :)
-Forever 21 Scarf
-Guess Wallet

I'm still trying to process that my mom bought all of this. I think she might have taken something that morning. Enough is enough though- I have wayyy to much shit in my wardrobe. The only thing I really want for Christmas is a leather bomber jacket.. AND A SNUGGIE. And most of all... :)

USA Babyy

Here we come :)
BBS.

Running from myself until you gave me a reason for standing still

I don't wanna waste another day, stuck in the shadow of my mistakes.
Cause I want you,
and I feel you,
crawling underneath my skin.
Like a hunger,
like a burning,
to find a place I've never been.

Friday the 13th

Why am I not surprised..? :/

CV Conference

I GET TO SEE RACHEL, CRAIG, & ALYSSA TONIGHTTT. :)

I totally shouldn't be going because of chem and drama rapeage..
Honestly, I was about ready to ditch. >:]
BUTTT all three of you complete me so I'm coming anyway.
Feel blessed.
I'm excited.
See you in an hour.

PS. Prepare to get lost again Rachel. Lmfao FMLLL. Epic adventures through dark hallways.

I look into your eyes, I want to get to know you

I don't know how it is with you.
You make shit so confusing.
I feel like I have so many opportunities when you're around, but I don't want to take my chances because of what happened in the past.
I almost feel kinda rude.
Are you feeling something? Or should we just continue with the addicting mess we've got going on right now? Or.. are we better off with neither?
I'm usually a go with the flow guy when it comes to this stuff, but sometimes I get these vibes that you want more attention and I don't know what to do about it.
It's making this unnecessary awkward tension that needs to be cut.
If there's one thing I can't take, it's making the same mistake twice.. and I'm not down for that again.

"I love you"

A lot of people are going to think I'm crazy saying this, but just try to understand.

You hear it everyday- those three words.
"I love you".
But where do you hear it most often?
Friends? Family? Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
Chances are, it's from friends. It gets tossed around like a tennis ball in a schoolyard. It seems to be the beginning and end of every conversation.
How many times have you finished a wall post on Facebook with "ILU", "IFLUSM", "You make my life" "You're my idol" etc.?

Think about what you're really saying. Think about the true meaning of it. Now imagine a moment where you're actually in love- not the "in love" that we'll carelessly throw into our sentences, but actual, real, genuine love. You're standing in front of that person alone and you know this is it. You need them to know. Now, how can you really communicate any pigment of your love when you've spent the day throwing the word around with everyone in sight. It feels like the word has become meaningless- that it possesses a value equal to a simple "hello" or "goodbye". It's like it's something you just say because it's the nice thing to do, but not something that you mean from the heart. It means nothing.

Nowadays, saying anything with even the slightest hint of passion is slapped across the face and labeled as "cheesy" or "cliche".
Especially "cliche", I really like that one.
Open up your eyes.
If you say a word to everyone like it means absolutely nothing- it's going to become a typical part of your day-to-day conversations, and therefore, cliche.

So, if you're going to run about, flailing your arms around everyone, greeting them with "I love you"- don't be frustrated when you finally find someone you actually, full-heartedly care about, but have no way of conveying it.
And don't you fucking dare come intruding on those of us who actually value the word and proclaim it's "cliche" every time we say it in one of the many ways you say on a minutely basis.
Love is everything. It's the origin of everything we do- the ultimate core. Without it, life is meaningless. The decision is yours- hold on to love for your life or neglectfully diminish every essence of the word and burn it to the ground.

Why am I not surprised?

Don't flatter yourself.
You know how it is.
Be my guest.

You're not serious

Can you say politics?
Whatever.
I'll take the safe way out if that's how it needs to be.

Home Away From Home

Student Council 09/10
I fucking love you guys so much.
You make me want to come to school everyday.
You're all such fun, smart, and all-around nice people.
Yall are like familyyy :)
Except Tina cause were getting married.
And Daina has to be the sister I always harass- yeah, sorry for undoing your brastrap today :) And thanks for having the patience to cope with my vanity today taking pictures.
And David- I'ma shove that brown paper roll thing up yo ass tomorrow.
Ight that'd be all.
LAV YALL!

Cha-Ching

New York next weekend :)

I miss this

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ifmu all so much

The only girlfriends I'll ever need

Click them to enlarge.

I love you Avos :)
Definitely not the best pics of me but they're good ones of you :)

Ill Remixes

Stop That Booty - Super Mash Bros.

I Fucking Bleed Purple and Gold - Super Mash Bros.

My heart it pounds, yeah you got me;

with my hands up.

What I mean is all I need is a little emotion;

Ice - LIGHTS

Self-Fact #12

Favourite Store:

I've been running for so long;

I think it's about time I stop.
I need to figure out what actually matters.
Maybe I'm right about everything, or maybe I'm entirely wrong.
Hopefully you'll push me in the right direction tomorrow after one of our long ass talks.
Haven't seen you in agesss but we know that's going to stop. Especially when I'm downtown and it's a lot easier to see each other.

"I don't give a fuck if they're a spot ahead;

if you know how to talk, they're 100 spots behind. You'll fucking run them."

Thanks pops :)

Let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster;

Fucking hot.
But I need it steaming.
Let's keep turning it up.

You make my nights

"LIL' ______. Are fucking serrrrrious?"
ilu sista.

In the city of blinding lights;

Probably not going to be too busy this weekend, so I'm going downtown everyday.
I miss the city.
And I need to buy shit.
I'm sick of wearing my Nike AF1's at school nowadays.
I miss just being out of uniform and wearing Chuck's, but after that, I get eyed down in the halls..
I kinda feel bad because my Nike AF1's are in perfect condition.
Idk though, they're just so bulky on my feet it feels annoying. I don't know how other people wear them everyday.
More importantly though, I need to catch up with someone who's quickly been becoming a long lost friend.
I miss you so much :P I can't wait to go on our missions everywhere again. They were so dangerous. But whatever, that's what makes it exciting. And we need to go there again. Best place on earth.
Ughhh.. I wish I lived in the city so bad. The lifestyle suits me so much more.

My Life is Complete

Taking Off, Finally

95 ON BIO PRESENTATION/SKIT ON CALVIN CYCLE :)
I'm so proud of you guys, you don't even understand.

ANDD

93 IN DRAMA!
it's the highest mark in the class :)
I swearrr if sciences don't work out for me this semester, I'm doing drama in university. Besides, I can still get into med school with a BA...

I'm such a gleek :)

This is love.

Yeah, a boy and a girl can be this tight :)

Michelle Sousa

IFMU SISTA!
haha.
one of my best friends forever hands down.
known you since we were ovum's, I'm tellin you.
i've known you just as long as i've known my own family.
you're one of the only girls i can trust completely.
even though everyone thinks we're guna get married and they don't understand how a boy and girl can be this close, we tell them to stop assuming shit and deal with it.
i'll never forget those days we'd race home from school and build our clubhouses and get rugburns and watch price is right while scarfing down my vavo's pasta;
those weekdays we'd play nicky on your other neighbour and he'd threaten to get the OPP on our ass;
those secret names that we'd assign to every person we knew so that no one would know who we were talking about;
those mornings we'd wake up, crack of dawn, and i'd go nextdoor to your basement and we'd play habbo hotel all day and skip meals;
those afternoons we'd do all sorts of pranks and lose all our water weight sweating while playing every sport and game in the book, including mini sticks which I'd always plow you and mike with my fat ass until i got to the net;
those times we'd go to sherway and do anything but go in stores & just sit on the couches and talk about life in general;
those winter days where you'd force my stupid ass down toboggan hills on legit 89 degree angles at the speed of light so i could go off a jump and in doing so i'd break my ass bone and you'd just sit there and laugh in my face while we had to walk home through dark wolf-infested forests and i walked like i had been raped for the three weeks following;
those rough times, where we let other people come between us and chose to buy bullshit from people who don't know what they're talking about, whatever though- it only made us stronger;
those evenings where i'd walk over, looking like a hobo in my oversized sweatpants, and you'd look just as chill and we'd watch the stupidest movies ever and make soft cookies, because we both hate crunchy cookies;
and all the many, many, many smiles and laughs we've shared throughout the many years I've known you.
I love you.

Heyy November

Where the hell did October go?